I don’t know if you are like me, but I always reflect upon the year as it’s closing. I think I do this to see what I’ve learned, how I’ve behaved (did I do it badly?), how I’ve helped or assisted others, and is there a possiblity to grow in some aspect of my life. 2012 seems to have been a year of change for me. I’ve discovered things about myself, saw things about my relationship with Kevin in a new light, figured out that my path was destined to go a course I had no control over, and finally understood why people cling to material objects instead of each other.
I find it ironic that many people thought 2012 was the end of the world. I watched the shows on History Channel which claimed this year, on 12/21/12, doomsday would happend. It reminded me of periods in history when there were many predictions about the world ending, and yet all that happened was a change in the course of human events. The world has been here for many millions of years, humans here for about 450,000 years and while the sun may be throwing out some mega solar storms, the human race is in no fear of being wiped from this planet.
2012 is a year of closing. Our little solar system has revolved around our orbit of the center of the galaxy in it’s approx 26,000 year cycle. The stars are now back to where they were in the sky 26,000 years ago, and we’ve entered into a new phase of human evolution…hopefully. There seems to be a marked balance of people who have become aware of this and those who have not. I would label it a fight between darkness and light, evil and good…you get the picture. I can see it in their eyes sometimes. There is either a hint of joy or the darkness of oppression. I feel sad for those of the latter.
Lucky and I sat together the other day on the bed. He looking at me and me looking at him. (This was after our big Christmas dinner in which Kevin’s daughter Carleigh would have said we had food babies). He and I made a pact that since the world didn’t end, we would venture out together to enjoy walks in the mountains like we used to do before I started back to school. I also told myself that this next year, 2013, would be a year in which my life would not belong to me. It would belong to others. 2013 is a year in which I will become a servent of others: my students, my children, my parents, my friends, those I know and those I don’t know. I will strive to be a giver and not a taker. Make changes for the betterment of the world and it’s people, and cling not to material things, but to those I love.
I’m glad the world didn’t end, because I’ve got a whole lot of living left to do.