Up-Date on the Adventure of the GRE test!

Luckers and his Sad Face

Luckers and his Sad Face

Well it is over.  Yay!  I have to tell you it was the most stressful thing I’ve done so far in this saga of continuing my education.  While I didn’t take the old format of the GRE, the new one still smoked my brain.  I told my boyfriend that if he was there, looking into the camera screen, he would see fumes pouring out my ears, because the cogs in the wheels of my mind were working overtime. 

I have to say that taking this type of Exam was indeed an adventure.  The  test center was in another city (Dahlonega) about an hour and half from my house over Blood Mountain.  Winding around hair-pin curves, I grew anxious the closer I got.  The instructions said that if I was not there 30 minutes before the test began, they would close the door and I wouldn’t be allowed in, thus forfeiting the costly fee.  I had 20 minutes to go and I hadn’t even reached the bottom of the mountain yet. 

The driving directions weren’t all that great from the map I pulled from the website, but I managed to find the location with five minutes to spare.  Told to take a seat in the row of desk lining the wall outside the exam room, I was given a clipboard and forced to fill out paperwork.  45 minutes later, I was escorted into a small room  just outside the main exam area.  TVA and airport security doesn’t have anything on these people.  Told to stand upon a white line, I was wanded with a metal detector from head to toe.  Then the lady in charge told me to pull out my pockets, lift up my pant legs, show her my wrists under my sweater.  There was some tension for a moment when I showed them my DL because I signed up under Connie Wallace instead of Constance Wallace.  (I got a very stern glare).  They didn’t know if I could be allowed in to take the test with the name difference.  I may not be who I said I was and could be taking the test for Constance Wallace.  0.O  I shrugged my shoulders and said that I forgot the formalities when I was signing up on-line.  After they made me drag out every bit of information in my wallet, including two credit cards, my college student ID, and my Rite-Aid discount card, they finally noted that they would just have to do a report on me and hope that ETS didn’t reject my scores because of it.  WHAT!!!!????

I next had to put all my stuff into a locker and was told that I could not take off my sweater or shoes in the enclosed testing area. I had cowboy boots on, I don’t think I would be able to take them off without some help.  Next I was buzzed into THE room.  This testing area was behind double pane glass that reminded me of bullet proof glass.  (I wondered for a brief moment, if there had been individuals before who may have went crazy in the testing center.  A quick mental picture of straitjackets flashed before my eyes.)  The lady who escorted me in had me stand against the wall until she readied my cube.  Then she motioned me over and told me to sit there and not to get up.  If I needed to go to the bathroom I had to raise my hand. NO talking to anyone either she whispered.  While I was signing in to the computer I looked up and saw a camera aimed right at me.  It reminded me of Big Brother in George Orwell’s “1984.”  I suddenly felt very conscious of every movement.

After 4 and 1/2 hours of staring into the screen clicking ”A, B, C or D,” I finished.  The screen gave me my scores.  152 in Verbal and 144 in Math.  (Have to wait on the analytical writing part).  I did a quick scan on the internet to find out how the new test scores are compiled and what makes a good score.  Both sections are graded on a scale of 130 to 170.  (150 – 155 is about average).  It’s about what I expected.  I’m pretty average and I’m okay with that.  Hopefully, as I apply to graduate programs for my Masters and then PhD education, I won’t have to retake the GRE.  I’d rather rub poison ivy on my arms.

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The Adventures of taking the GRE

Well end of the semester came and went.  Managed to eek out good grades again. But now I am on to my final year of undergraduate work and Friday I must take the dreaded GRE.  I took a practice test the other day and in most of the verbal sections I did not get ONE question right.  I got more Math right than Verbal.  Hey, aren’t I supposed to be a history major??

Going to graduate school means you must know big words that many people have never even heard of.  For example:  Loquacious, which means “talkative” or mendacity which means “untruthfulness.”  Can’t say I’ve ever used either one of these in normal conversation, but I guess if I was at some big important get-together with professors, I could wow them with my knowledge of those words by injecting a sentence or two into polite conversation.  “Man, she sure was loquacious last night during the movies.”  Or perhaps “His mendacity is going to make me very angry!”  Now if any normal average American looked at these sentences, they would probably think many other things than the definitions I just gave you.

While studying my book I got on mastering the GRE: A Strategic Approach, I was able to finally get some verbal questions right.  I also did run through the math section and became familiar with all the formulas I once knew about 30 years ago, but have forgotten, because everyone knows most people do need algebra skills once they leave high school.  Anyone here remember the FOIL rule for algebra equations?  Well it is going to be an adventure on Friday.  I did give myself a small consolation that if I do badly I can retake it again in about 60 days, but I will have to study all summer.  Man, wouldn’t that be a bummer.

Recommendation for GRE help: “New GRE Premium Edition: A Strategic Approach” by Doug Tarnopol  www.rea.com/gre

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Today is Poetry Day – Empty Nest

Congratulations to my daughter Calle for her recent graduation from Young Harris College, and her move to Texas to begin a new life.  I miss all three of my little chicks, but know they are bound for great things in this world.

EMPTY NEST

I hear the bird, just outside my window.

The chirping bright and pretty.

Mama bird is calling to her babies,

The three perched upon the nest.

It is time, she sings,

To spread your wings.

Fly the sky.

One by one they flutter

The beat so tiny and timid.

But soon they learn

And off they go

As mama watches, content.

It is not long before I see,

These tiny hatchlings disappear.

The nest is empty

Except for mama

Who now sings so wistfully,

For she knows her babies grew

And must find their own song tree,

But she is wishing just like me

That they were still

Young and frail

Huddled in her empty nest.

Being Creative in a Technological World: Traditional Publishing vs. Self Publishing

Book Cover of “The Mirror Sliver”

Recently I had  honor of lecturing here at Young Harris College.  My topic was “Being Creative in a Technological World,” and I really enjoyed the chance of speaking to students about being a self-published author.   Opening up the first minutes of the lecture I stated:  The title of my lecture could be taken two different ways.   “Is our world losing it’s creativity because of technology?” or “Is there more creativity because of technology?”

Do we find that technology has stifled us in writing?  The answer is no.  Books are being generated by the thousands, and it’s because of technology.  Addressing the issues of why I chose to be a self-published author supported this second statement.  When I first had the dream of Legends of Green Isle, I did research into the traditional publishing realm.  What I found really made me take a step back.  Normally, traditional publishing companies only pick up one or two new authors a year, and many of those authors are writers who have already published. Okay well that seems like a vicious circle to me.  Acquiring an agent is just about as difficult as finding a traditional publishing firm to pick up your books, and…..many do not want to tackle a series.  They would rather have a standalone book to see if your stuff is going to sell.

After heaving a big sigh, I decided to write the first book in the series and then attempt to find an agent.  Finding agents is just about as difficult as finding a graduate program.  (Or so I’ve been told).  After about 200 emails and letters, I received a polite “No thank you” from about 5.  Yesterday I received a reply from one that I sent about two years ago.  Hmmmm…..  Based on these numbers, I’d be eighty before anything happened, and all I want is to tell my story and have kids enjoy reading it.

Since we live in such a technological world, writers now have at their fingertips many different resources in which to publish their stories, whether it is an e-book or paper/hardback. I chose Smashword.com to generate the e-book of Book One – “The Forgotten Spell” because it’s free, and if you are pretty computer savvy and can follow their guidelines, they will list the book on their premium list and send to all the major retailers like Apple, Sony, Kobo, Barnes and Noble, Diesel and Amazon (once they get their technical stuff worked out with them).

Outskirts Press was a POD publishing company I chose because their pricing was reasonable and they didn’t kill a zillion trees to mass print my books.  I am all about the green revolution in today’s technological world.

The lecture did go into what Legends of Green Isle was about, but most of what I told them is here in some of my older blog posts, so you are welcome to scroll back through the archives if your interested.  The last thing I presented to the audience was the unveiling of Book Two’s cover (“The Mirror Sliver”).  This cover is another product of technology, and was crafted with great care by my daughter Kelsey’s friend Sandie who wants to work at Pixar when he gets older.  He is a very talented young man.

I still hope that one day Legends of Green Isle series will be picked up by a traditional house.  As a student and future teacher, I do not seem to have the time to do the marketing for it at this moment.  This is my only area which I feel I still need help in.  Being on your own really means being on your own in terms of getting your great story out into the world.  So I keep my fingers crossed that the winds of chance will blow in my direction soon.

:)

Cats and Spiders: History of Native American Totem Animals

Lucky and Nanners – Best Buds

I don’t know if it’s because of a full moon approaching or we’re nearing the cosmic alignment with the center of the universe, but lately I’ve been having some weird dreams which involve, much to my horror, spiders, with an occasion cat thrown in just to mix it up.  Seeing that I have been inducted by association into the Henderson Comanche Grey Mountain clan, (my boyfriend’s family) it made me think about the history of Native American belief in spirit animals.

Native Americans took great stock in spirit animals, believing them to be totem animals.  A totem could be the symbol of a tribe, clan, family or individual.  Indian tradition connects individuals with at least nine different animals which accompany one through life.  It was believed that these different animal guides come in and out of our lives depending on the direction we are headed in, and the tasks that need to be completed along the journey.  These totem animals are with you for life both in the physical and spiritual world and while animal guides may change throughout your life time, it is the one totem animal that acts as the main guardian spirit.

Well, I have dreamed off and on about several types of animals during my lifetime and they always seem to be leading me somewhere in my dreams, but my one totem animal is differently the cat.  Sometimes the spider drops in on occasion both in the dream world and the physical world.  When the big hairy mountain spiders (they look like baby tarantulas) suddenly spring into the middle of the kitchen floor, I can’t kill them.   I just sweep them gently into a dustpan and herd them out the door.

I was curious to find out what my dream animals meant, so I did a little research and found the following:

Bear:  Industrious, instinctive, healing, power, sovereignty, guardian of the world, watcher, courage, will power, self-preservation, introspection, and great strength.  (Dreamed a lot of the bear three years ago during a tough moment in my life)

Cat: Guardianship. detachment, sensuality, mystery, magic and independence. (always have dreams about cats)

Snake: Impulsive, shrewdness, rebirth, transformation, initiation and wisdom.  (I dreamed a lot about the snake when I moved up to the mountains)

Tiger: Strength, valor, power and energy. (I’ve had several dreams about riding on the back of a tiger and it usually happens during some stress or family problem)

Wolf: Loyalty, perseverance, success, intuition and spirit.  (I had a dream a couple of months ago that a black wolf was fighting my cat in my dream.  The cat was in front of me protecting me from the wolf).

And of course the Spider: Balance, wisdom, creativity, communication.

For fun reading this summer if you like history, I recommend “The Great Cat Massacre.”  This is on my list.  Early 1700s in French history.

Free from Fashion Restraints.

For the last couple of weeks I have found myself wearing some interesting color combinations.  I didn’t know if it was because the end of the semester was coming to a head, and the craziness with finishing all the term papers and other projects that need to be completed, or if I was just going crazy myself that I just forgot to look in the mirror.  I discovered that I gravitated unintentionally towards purple and red combinations.

I chuckled.  It made me remember waiting tables a long time ago when a rather large group of ladies reserved the banquet hall, and they all showed up half-lit.  Two of  us served the giggling and laughing women who wore Purple outfits with Red hats.  It was a meeting of the Red Hat Society and my first experience dealing with the phenomenon.  The motto was pretty simple I believe: When you get to a certain age, you’ve earned the right to wear pretty much what you want to, even purple with red.

Looking at this particular color choice that I started to dress in, I’ve come to realize that perhaps I’ve hit that milestone.   Sunday when I went to work at the tasting room at the local vineyard, I wore a purple shirt, blue jeans and bright red cowboy boots.  I kinda liked that color combination, it made me feel happy and sort of free.  Free of constraints and the limitation of fashion.

So today this blog is dedicated to those women who are at the point in their lives where they are happy with themselves and comfortable enough to realize that clothing doesn’t make the person.  I know I’m there…..

The Historian – Beginnings of a Short Story

Lately I have been doing my practicum experience in the local middle school with a delightful class of 7th graders.  I had the fortune to teach the RTI class at the beginning of the day, and since they were there for reading and writing enrichment, I worked with them on poetry and prose as a different type of strenghing exercise.  One of our themes was “futuristic” and when I put everyone short stories on powerpoint to view and read the next class, I came up with a little idea of my own.  I only wrote a small paragraph for them, but for you readers, I am extending it….and asking for your imagination to take flight.  What do you think he found inside the old woman’s house?  Best one gets inserted in the story and of course joint authorship. 

She was a lonely old woman who lived on the highest mountain above the village.  Very few saw her, or spoke with her.  Some nights there were stories which men told at the tavern of seeing a figure standing out on the crumbling structures of metal and concrete, the form illuminated by the moon.  Her flowing gray hair, whipped by the breeze covered her ancient face, hiding the details of her wisdom.  Many thought she was just a myth, a tale told by firelight, but she was real, and the men would attest to her existence.

They called her “the historian.” No one knew her by anything different.  Her name was forgotten, just like that of technology and money, and the ways of the old earth.  Only brave men sought her out, asking questions about artifacts they found in their fields during harvest.  She was the only one who knew the materials and shapes, the only one who remembered the things of a world before the comet. For some she was a monster, and they were afraid of her.  The woman was an unknown element in their small piece of life, their sanctuary and safe abode.  How old was she? None knew.  Her age seemed to be endless, and that was okay too.   They needed her, whether they wanted to admit it or not, and they had to have her with all their being, so that a connection could be found to humans before their time. For without that bridge, they would have been like lost children unsure of who they were and why they were there.

It was this way for one young man, this want for a connection.  He was an outcast, shunned by his parents and the villagers, because of a subtle difference that no one really wanted to acknowledge, but they understood it enveloped him with its magic.  It was magic to them, this difference, because none of them could ever work the mechanisms, buttons and wires.  To them it was possession, it was evil and his knowledge didn’t belong with them.  They wanted to know a connection but they were afraid, and they wanted him to go away, so that their fear wouldn’t be disturbed from its slumber deep within them.   They sent him away to live among the crumbing concrete and metal frames which penetrated the jumble of trees and undergrowth.  Perhaps, they thought to themselves, perhaps the old woman would want him.

It didn’t take long for the young man to see her.  In the light of the full moon he saw her form glide from one place to another, her white shape shining like a ghostly apparition among the dark skeletal remains of a world long since past.   He stood quietly in the evening air, watching her getting closer.  He wasn’t afraid, no not frightened at all.  In fact, he thought to himself, as she passed through the underbrush on a path headed directly for him, he welcomed her.  He knew he found his conduit.

The Historian paused in front of him; her wild, gray hair lay about her shoulders in long waves of curls, bound with white ribbon in some places.  In her right hand she carried a long staff made of smooth wood, bound at the top with red leather, a feather, knotted in a cord, hung from the crimson material.  It danced in the chilly night wind, flipping in chaotic frenzy beside her wrinkled face.  A talisman hung from another leather cord around her neck.  He smiled when he saw it.  It was an object he had seen numerous times when he went digging alone in the ancient places.

“Why are you here?” she finally said in a low rasping whisper.  “Aren’t you afraid I’ll eat you or turn you into some foul rodent?”

The young man smiled wider. “No, I’m not frightened.  Not at all.”  His hand reached into a pocket on his cotton coat.  He pulled out a familiar object, similar to that which the old woman wore around her neck.

“Aww, a kindred soul,” she smiled, revealing a set of dingy gray teeth.  “Come with me.”

Following the glowing white figure in front of him, the two made their way back into the jungle of nature and man-made monuments.  The moon had only traveled a short distance in the sky when they crossed out of the cover of quiet solitude and into open air again.  Before them stood a large stone house, three stories tall, its outer walls covered in ivy and flowers.  He stood for a moment, mesmerized by the structure.  It was different, much different than the sod and thatched homes of the village.

“Come inside, young one,” she motioned with her left hand as she pushed on a metal lever releasing the latch.

He followed her into the doorway.